God revealed something to me that I've been hiding from myself and others for a long time. I am addicted to recognition. I love being the "go to" guy. I love being the person who steps up and "saves the day". I love the false sense of importance I get from a pat on the back, a "thank you", or a "job well done". I'm addicted to being the super-hero.
Super-heroes are versatile. This explains a lot about why I do what I do. I've always been known as a "Jack of all trades" type. I never really take the time to master any one particular thing, but I love learning how to be proficient enough at most things so I can take credit for helping someone out in many different situations.
Super-heroes wear disguises. Sometimes my addiction to recognition is well disguised as dedication, kindness, or selflessness. The truth is, I'll sometimes go out of my way to "save the day" and totally neglect my wife and daughter.
It feels good to pin-point an addiction in my life. The next step is resolving this issue. Pray that God will transform me and help me figure out how to use the compassion, kindness, and abilities that He has given me for His glory instead of my own.
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Awesome thoughts Chris.
Your best advocate for your "recovery" from this addiction will be your wife. Give her permission to step between you and the phone booth to stop you from putting on that super-hero costume. Then.... listen to her! She's the one who knows where you are emotionally, physically and situationally. Trust God for the recovery and trust her for the help.
If you were a super hero, you'd be "THE TUX".
Thanks for the encouragement and advice, Faye.
Nick...I'll save that confession for another day...haha!
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